the highlight of my week is watching tv with my parents, the hint of friendship or love in a song, tv show, or movie has me on the verge of of in tears…

i have stopped myself from dwelling on these feelings as i know that will do nothing for me. i feel that i have only God… BUT i long for physical, hug, handshake, peck on the check, anything…

I just feel alone, plain and simple.. this blog has become a place of dispair for me! a place to leave my feelings out for all to read, but i never tell anyone about this place of mine… if i told someone i fear what they would think of me, so i sit here alone.  it is a cycle which i need to end, but am unsure how…